wallflower

2012-02-13T09:01:00.001+08:00

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body parts

2012-02-09T21:29:00.000+08:00

weakest links: eyes and hands

?

2012-01-23T23:16:00.000+08:00

Toys from Anthony Burrill on Vimeo.

no time to doubt the brief

6

2012-01-18T00:14:00.005+08:00

don't ask by grizzly bear

i never really took any advice from day one. but today i sat and listened to a young boy give me advice and i thought that really made some sense

2012-01-15T00:06:00.002+08:00

guess we don't need too many friends in life.. just one to finish up the crabstick sandwiches, one to make a new playlist, one to help write long emails, one to sit and listen and a few to keep the phone buzzing

i never did anything to deserve this. thank you darlings <3

why am i gonna let you try

2012-01-12T09:44:00.005+08:00

Cheating is easy. There's no swank to infidelity. To borrow against the trust someone has placed in you costs nothing at first. You get away with it, you take a little more and a little more until there is no more to draw on. Oddly, your hands should be full with all that taking but when you open them there's nothing there.

***

the week has been difficult

waking up, traveling and choosing the right music, having to socialize, making decisions that would affect my entire semester, the moments just before i fall asleep.. it's all been really difficult

on top of that, having to think about how difficult it is to have you split your heart for me is the worst shit i've ever been tasked to endure

where do i put this spaceship?

2012-01-05T16:57:00.007+08:00

you can take everything from me but could you please return my illustrator?

call me back, please..?

why is the measure of love loss?

2012-01-03T16:15:00.002+08:00

"I don't want a pillow I want your moving breathing flesh. I want you to hold my hand in the dark, I want to roll on to you and push myself into you. When I turn in the night the bed is continent-broad. There is endless white space where you won't be. I travel it inch by inch but you're not there. It's not a game, you're not going to leap out and surprise me. The bed is empty. I'm in it but the bed is empty."

a person is not a rescue dog

2012-01-02T09:28:00.002+08:00

i woke up in the middle of my 16h nap last night asking myself: how did "a lot" become "a bit" in less than a month's time?

in the new year i hope to make a friend who will not run away

swimming holes

2011-12-19T06:34:00.001+08:00

"That night I tried to console Lotte. And yet even as I tried, I was aware that I didn't know how to, that what we were performing together was a kind of empty pantomime, since I couldn't hope to know or understand what the boy had meant to her. It was not for me to know, and yet she wanted or perhaps even needed my comfort, and though I suppose a better man might have felt differently, I couldn't help feeling a grain of resentment. Just a drop, nothing more, but as I held her in the car outside our house I felt it. After all, wasn't it unfair of her to erect walls and then ask me to comfort her for what went on behind them? Unfair and even selfish? Of course I said nothing. What could I have said? Once upon a time I had promised to forgive her everything."

your hand in mine

2011-12-17T12:10:00.003+08:00

most mornings i wake up feeling okay. some days i ask myself while brushing my teeth: what would i be doing today if i didn't have to go to work?

on the way to work i play some john mayer. sometimes jay chou for more depressing mornings. by 11am i get a bit frustrated doing minor changes for the client. and hungry

after lunch i just feel like sleeping. and by 3pm i start to get a little depressed about how a huge portion of the photos on my 136-page indesign file are not linked. 5pm i continue thinking about why my call is not being returned or my whatsapp message not replied. 530pm i sit on the toilet and i can't move

in the evenings we go for long and draggy meetings, complete with swee choon dim sum after. tuesday i met shar for dinner at the airport and wednesday i ran after the bus after work. yesterday i sat shivering on the bus before dinner in town

things are beginning to look up. but not before my nightmare that is FA-ing my 136-page magazine on monday

i miss everything

watermelon

2011-12-03T11:05:00.003+08:00

in the end i still cannot be happy doing things i should be happy doing

i just wanto sit in front of the tvee and dig into a big and juicy watermelon right now

baby could i be the rabbit in your hat?

2011-11-30T14:03:00.000+08:00

understanding =/= acceptance

tired + hungry

life

2011-11-27T22:22:00.003+08:00

school's out but i woke up at 7am this morning to rush for a deadline

i've told myself countless times not to help people if it's not within my means. but every time someone comes to me for help desperately, i cave in and say okay

also, some time this year, i told myself that i owe all i have to 4 very important people in my life and i'll take care of them when they grow old. and of cos i will never say no to them. and it so happened that 3 out of 4 of these people came to me for help this month (okay i offered to help one of them but i'll just put everyone in the same category. too lazy to explain)

so obviously i had to take everything up. i complain about the workload once in a while but i could never reject them in any way

i just kept asking myself this morning: is this the time to help people, seriously? when i should be spending time with people who will be going away for a long time? or people who will be coming back to spend just a month here? is this the time to be working for money?? what do i gain if i have money but lost so much time that could have been spent with these people i love?

always thought i am pretty okay when it comes to decision making but i guess not this time

also, if i had a choice, i just don't wanto be here anymore

oh, what a tangled web we weave

2011-11-07T22:59:00.003+08:00

我現在捨不得！
我知道。
我們會再見面嗎？

要分開了，才能再見面。
那麼我們再見面的時候，會分開嗎？
還會。
既然還能見面，為甚麼還要分開？
因為這樣我才能掛念你。

我回去會做些甚麼？

會等。

等會痛嗎？
一點點......

－无－

2011-10-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

吞下去，把它吞下去

2011-09-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

get out of february

2011-09-25T01:07:00.003+08:00

learn to shop on my own

learn to read maps

learn to tie my own laces

learn to sit on the right side

learn to live from scratch

2011-09-04T17:37:00.002+08:00

in the past week i felt myself grow up a little. but part of me is still a child who will never stop crying

it's probably too early but i already have a mini february 2012 playlist in my head

everything is eventual

2011-08-21T14:49:00.004+08:00

my life is a constant ~~longing~~ struggle to be like the man in Jesus' parable of the hidden treasure. i also realized that i have zero understanding of the term self denial

~~~

can't help but smile to myself thinking about playing "where's my present" with an old friend last night. it's such a waste i gave up too early and repented too late, but i guess it's things like these that teach us the most valuable lessons in life. i (might) have emerged stronger

Lotte

2011-07-27T10:20:00.000+08:00

Yes, Lotte was a mystery to me, but I took comfort in those little islands I discovered in her, islands that I could always find, no matter how poor the conditions, and use to orient myself.
- Great House, Nicole Krauss

➜

2011-07-22T16:06:00.004+08:00

I've got my things; I'm good to go.

grey

2011-07-20T03:04:00.001+08:00

the weekend made me think possibly a little too much. the time felt right and everything was in place. but i couldn't do it

after that i watched tv and went on to do things like i did every day. and i thought to myself things that would have happened if i had gone ahead with the decision. i would have been able to relate to that female character on tv. this song would make so much sense. i would throw this away

i still feel like i am prepared. and if you were to point a gun at my head i would go ahead with it. but i know deep down what the heart wants and this is not it

uncomfortably slow

2011-07-14T11:02:00.009+08:00

i am having difficulties trying to be happy doing something i should be happy doing

2011-07-06T09:54:00.002+08:00

we learn many things from one's departure, but few put these things into practice..

dust

2011-07-02T13:00:00.004+08:00

the week whizzed past. made a few life-changing decisions, said goodbye to my uncle, had a huge row with someone i love and met an inspiring stranger. so i sat down and breathed them into my lungs last night

~.~

2011-06-23T14:31:00.001+08:00

every day i take one step forward and three steps back
why is this so difficult?

of yuan yang and diet coke

2011-06-18T10:05:00.001+08:00

pete: i don't like these kinda things, yuan yang.. coffee is coffee, tea is tea

yongkin: then why do you drink diet coke..?

pete: ... ok, you win!

☁

2011-06-16T08:01:00.000+08:00

Dandelions in bullet holes
We stand in our civilian clothes
On blankets laid out on a lawn
Clouds of rain will all move on
And when the mist clears we will see
Both of our names on a marquee
Across the ocean the same day
And then washed ashore a block away

***

i could get used to being alone but i really don't wanto

⦁

2011-06-14T17:30:00.001+08:00

some conversations can be so damn pointless

a tragic month

2011-06-12T03:06:00.003+08:00

bought a whole load of nonsense and realized only yesterday that we're not even halfway through the month of june. not regretting any of my purchases. just thought maybe it'll be good for it to rain money. that brings me to my next point

i missed my NAFA scholarship application deadline. by more than a month ha ha ha ha ha tragic max. scholarship covers one year's school fees. which is a whooping $24k. i can only laugh to/at myself ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

also, my macbook is lagging like a dog. i can no longer do the multiple screens thing. my windows have to be minimized and opened from the dock. everything takes more than 3 seconds to load (that is really very slow ok plz) i really cannot take it

thought it's about time i get a wacom tablet so we made plans to head down to the PC show tmr but now i'm just like omg you can get it off ebay at less than a hundred bucks and i'm sooooo lazy so i'm considering giving the show a miss

oh something that is less tragic: we had mussels at the mussel guys (vivo city) today! they should seriously consider doing a rebranding. their mussels were really ups but the branding is so jia lat that i've never thought of trying it before today. i shall write to them in the near future to propose a rebranding project, ha ha ha ha ha ha

i can't wait for monday to come, no srsly. maybe i should pack my desk and cupboards after church tomorrow. preparing to move into a new room next month! more news soon! tata :D :D

i am the cub who was washed out in the flood

2011-06-05T02:34:00.003+08:00

it's been a good weekend so far because all i've been doing is eating, sleeping, shopping online and hanging out in church. highly productive weekend. no srsly

the past week saw me getting up super early on some days and leaving the office late every night. tragic life ): but everything has a but. the but (not butt butt ha ha ha ha ha) is the fact that joanna leong is always not too far away <3

on an unrelated note, i am so affected by the fact that my new marc jacobs perfume didn't come in the exact flower bottle cap i thought it would come in ):

z

2011-06-02T08:32:00.001+08:00

we fell asleep during kungfu panda 2 last night. maybe it's time to take a break

i hate all your show

2011-05-11T09:15:00.002+08:00

in the past two months i watched someone who used to give me bread every morning turn into a monster. maybe he was a monster even before he started giving me bread. i just never thought things would turn out like this

half

2011-05-07T01:24:00.002+08:00

Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you
Than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you

***

life.. it really tires me out.............

circles

2011-04-24T00:27:00.001+08:00

i find myself needing physical company a lot more than usual even when i don't really feel like opening my mouth to talk. it is so very strange for a semi-independent person like myself. there were a few times i wanted to tweet to ask if anybody would like to join me for a _______________ session (i can't even think of a name for it) whereby both of us just sit in our own circles, do our own stuff and keep to ourselves for half a day and then go home, but i thought that would sound too ridiculous and poser-ish so i just left it at that. if anybody reading this would like to participate in this activity please leave your name and contact number. i will text you on a random day and we can meet for some circling~

i guess this is no longer private so i can tell everybody how i'm feeling about going back to school right now. i am downright unwilling and super stressed up about it. those who follow me on twitter would probably have read my tweet about dreaming about not being able to meet my deadline. it happens ALL THE TIME. i've dreamt about last minute deadline/olevels panic attack so many times i've lost count. my portfolio is not even 10% complete and i'm dreading my lasalle interview which is gonna happen on thursday. i can imagine myself going into a real panic attack if they ever ask me questions like "how do you think the local art scene has advanced over the past five years?" i'll be like "uhhhhh.. i think......... well the local art scene uh well...... mmm ok i don't know." i seriously don't know okay?! i guess i did kinda wanto go get a degree, like get it over and done with for a year or two at any of the design schools in singapore but now i'm just applying because i need to give my parents an answer. honestly i'm not ready to go in with a shitty portfolio because i, afterall, would still wanto say 'i can design' but i really am going to pray like mad they don't accept me. need to spend my time finding some meaning in life rather than going to school and meeting stupid deadlines ):<

also, what i really wanted to talk about in this post is the tragic truth i've come to accept in the past month - that people who have known you your entire life or whom you've spent half your life with might not actually really understand you. but i really have no words so i shall end this post abruptly with a video

Christ has died, Christ has risen and Christ will come again! have a blessed easter everyone!

2011-04-22T00:54:00.000+08:00

i still have not found the courage to lay down my life for You

)':

what a feeling in my soul

2011-04-13T00:45:00.003+08:00

life has been really different in the past month(s)

i've probably never been happier or sadder than i am now

✈

2011-04-08T01:28:00.001+08:00

而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

☂

2011-04-06T01:45:00.002+08:00

When an ocean sits right between us
There is no sign that we’ll ever cross
You should know now that I feel the loss

i am the most selfish+horrible person on the surface of Earth

心跳

2011-03-29T15:24:00.001+08:00

你的眼神充满美丽
带走我的心跳

绝望

2011-03-27T09:32:00.002+08:00

面对不讲理的人我只想埋在枕头和被单下不理

难过的是真正能塞住她的嘴巴的只有钱

心里话

2011-03-26T17:44:00.004+08:00

有些事情不是做久／说久了就成为真理

穿错别人的鞋子，穿久了那双鞋子不会就成为你的

正如我容忍你因种种原因迟到不代表迟到是对的

－完－

i counted on you, on you

2011-03-23T15:39:00.002+08:00

keep thinking if i've actually made any impact in any of my kids' life. they are so irresponsible, unreliable and thoughtless because i have never taught them anything

could have been three tweets

2011-03-22T08:39:00.004+08:00

1 finally realized how vomit inducing tongue brushing is @dorokang
2 the lower part of my legs have been gasping for air but i have run out of outfits that end above my knee ):
3 daryl lim and i are actually ~~kinda similar~~ grossly similar in some ways

stronger

2011-03-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

have been busy putting the small stones and sand in the jar. the big rocks are too unrewarding and they really tire me out

华语cool

2011-03-17T23:50:00.005+08:00

一天有二十四小时

八小时在睡觉

两小时在搭公车

两小时刷牙、洗澡

九小时在工作

一小时加班

下班后商店差两小时就打烊

如果花半小时生气或假装生气，再花半小时盯着手机，就只剩下一个小时的时间

结论：暂时想不到

累了，晚安

/:

2011-03-17T00:32:00.003+08:00

最近藏在心里的事越来越多，话到口边最后还是决定把它吞回肚子里。真有种就快窒息的感觉。。。。。。

能说的就是：大斋节真的好难守 ):

♥♡

2011-03-15T01:12:00.003+08:00

After that day when I saw the elephant, I let myself see more and believe more. It was a game I played with myself. When I told Alma the things I saw she would laugh and tell me she loved my imagination. For her I changed pebbles into diamonds, shoes into mirrors, I changed glass into water, I gave her wings and pulled birds from her ears and in her pockets she found the feathers, I asked a pear to become a pineapple, a pineapple to become a lightbulb, a lightbulb to become the moon, and the moon to become a coin I flipped for her love, both sides were heads: I knew I couldn't lose.

- The History of Love, Nicole Krauss

2011-03-11T00:36:00.001+08:00

wang has gotta be the sweetest boy ever <3

Asshole

2011-03-06T14:30:00.001+08:00

thanks for opening my eyes to so many better things in life

extremely heavy boots

2011-03-03T21:46:00.004+08:00

1 happy
2 scared
3 helpless

***

1 are you working as a gigolo?
2 happy one month! vomitz
3 do not want

i don't wanto meet anymore new people. don't be so nice to me i really cannot tank

broken bones

2011-02-26T16:05:00.004+08:00

pardy tmr is cancelled. in its place are three back to back meetings which i have yet to prepare for. also, i have a cake that i don't know what to do with /:

it's a slow and stressful day, i have to head out to buy more tussils later and monday might ~blow~. but i guess there are more things to look forward to than to be depressed about

i am just going to wait for time to pass for now

This world is burning and I'm terrified
I need a little more time with you, oh
I just need a little more time with you

^^

2011-02-24T19:37:00.004+08:00

got so excited researching for korean bbq places for dorokang's birthday celebration but we didn't eat there eventually. so i shamelessly suggested it when kel asked what i wanted to have for birthday dinner, kekeke. possibly the most exciting dinner (in terms of food) as of now!

re-read my previous post on birthday bookings and i was like "wow qinyi you're really shameless." i shan't explain myself but as you can see, most of the dates are booked, ha ha ha ha. i have the right to be shameless!!!!!!!!

anyway boss said the sweetest thing during lunch on tuesday. he was like "all the people who matter to me are celebrating their birthdays during this period. my wife.. then this girl.." ......... SO SWEET RIGHT?!! ok maybe not super sweet to youall but i think i almost died. also, he announced that we're having lunch together tomorrow to celebrate my birthday. i casually said i wanted to eat sashimi and he was like "sushi tei?" what more can i say? he's truly the best boss on earth *wipes tear

so much to look forward to in the following week. just hope that i'll wake up not coughing tomorrow ): DON'T WANTO EAT ANYMORE PORRIDGE OR FISH SOUP PLEASE ): please pray for me! xie xie da jia. wan an ^^

2011-02-22T17:07:00.000+08:00

还要多久我才能在你身边 ):

kekekekeke

2011-02-21T08:42:00.008+08:00

hello all

many people have been asking so for those who don't already know

1. no i won't be having a 21st birthday party
2. you are invited to celebrate my birthday with me over a period of ~ two weeks

priority booking has closed and normal bookings are officially opened. dates and time slots available are as follows:

~~25 feb (fri): availability to be confirmed (7pm till late)~~
26 feb (sat): fully occupied
27 feb (sun): fully occupied/booked
28 feb (mon): fully booked
1 mar (tue): fully booked
2 mar (wed): fully booked
3 mar (thu): unavailable
4 mar (fri): fully booked
5 mar (sat): 9am-3pm fully booked / 5pm till late fully booked
6 mar (sun): fully booked

bookings can be made via text messaging, email (lim.qinyi@gmail.com) or any other (obviously very limited) social networks that i use. you can book in a group or as individuals. all are welcomed. bookings are available on a first come first serve basis. to confirm, please try to book at least 2 days in advance. more dates for this week will be opened should i recover earlier than expected

will keep this post updated. looking forward to meeting all of you!

<3, qinyi

"let's stand under a tree"

2011-02-15T22:00:00.005+08:00

haven't been sleeping well since the weekends. so tired but so contented with life <:

my sweetest downfall

2011-02-12T08:02:00.002+08:00

always reading too much into things and over deciphering lyrics and (words that might not even be) puns

i didn't sleep well last night

deng deng deng deng

2011-02-09T22:54:00.007+08:00

my new toy arrived in the office early in the morning on monday. boss and i got so excited we were screaming and laughing super loudly. i swear he was more excited than i was

eh video video! (can you believe it. he actually video-ed the whole process of me opening my iPhone and burnt it into a cd for me)

(i tried calling the number on the brochure but they couldn't activate my SIM then so i put it aside to concentrate on my work)

eh call them to activate your micro SIM! huh why cannot activate? call again!

(5mins later)

eh you never call them? activate already or not? still cannot? keep calling!

(10mins later)

eh still cannot activate? ok later we go the singtel shop ask them activate for you

(before lunch)

eh you need cover? (takes out green and blue covers) choose one choose one

(before i left the office)

eh you want protective sheet? i got extra give you one

how cute is my boss ha ha ha ha

anyway leeyt and anybody else who hates iPhone users, i promise you that i will not look at my iPhone for more than 10mins when i'm with you. and that i will not make iPhone conversations if there is anybody who doesn't own a iPhone/bb at the table (disclaimer: if somebody else starts the topic and asks me a question i will reply, but i promise i will not leave whoever doesn't have an iPhone/bb out of the conversation ok?). if i don't keep to my promise you can have my toy

***

The History of Love by Nicole Krauss is a lovely lovely book <3

i'm so lousy

2011-02-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

i will say good night

2011-02-03T01:02:00.004+08:00

i'm no longer a fan of the chinese new year. the only thing i'm looking forward to is food. i hope we see kueh lapis tomorrow. if i do i will be very very very happy! if not bak kwa is fine as well

wento help out at my ah ma's place today. yes only old people wake up so early. she told me to go at 8am i was like O: but ok nevermind just go. i woke up late and arrived at her place only at 8.30 anyway x: so we had sam jum bak for breakfast. it was so good i think i ~floated up~ at the first bite 6': and i started wrapping ngor hiang (?) from 9 or something. i wrapped 36 frickin sticks/rolls of ngor hiang can you believe it! and then i helped make fishballs from scratch. my ah ma is a lovely woman i don't know of anybody who makes these things from scratch anymore

moving on

my mum gathered a whole bunch of new stuff (still in their bags gawd i'm so lazy i didn't even take anything out to try/admire/wash) i'd acquired over the past month and hung them beside my table. didn't think i shopped so much in january but i guess i did /: haven't found time to open 2 of my pageone books as well. what am i doinggggg

i don't wanto go anywhere on chu 2 can or not

also, i have decided to grow my hair out. i am very inspired by this new look that i'm pretty sure i probably wouldn't like anymore when my hair is that length. and maybe, then, a lovely but horrible person will come by and break my heart and i will cut my hair short again

2011-01-31T23:54:00.004+08:00

jon foreman - southbound train

discovered awesomeness in the form of jon foreman today

i love the weather and buses that take one million years to arrive <:

the language of gestures

2011-01-29T23:09:00.004+08:00

***

over the past 2 weeks, i've had to tell 3 of my close friends when my birthday is. if you are a close friend and you are not sure/do not know when my birthday is, please use whatever method you can think of to find out and don't let me know you don't know. it's really heartbreaking ): IF YOU DARE TO SCOLD ME AND SAY YOU DON'T KNOW MY BIRTHDAY COS I DON'T HAVE FACEBOOK I WILL PUNCH YOU. SAY REAL ONE

adrift

2011-01-26T10:00:00.003+08:00

I'll follow you
The leaf that's following the sun
When will my weight be too much for you?
When will these ideas really be my own?
Cause this moment keeps on moving
We were never meant to hold on

i've been thinking about chocolate waffle and wholemeal bread a lot. if neither are the best then what is..?

i would have let you leave

2011-01-19T01:01:00.004+08:00

something to think about from last night's sharing: would you put shit in a golden bowl?

i too have no strength ): @phantomarty

hold on, what did you say that for?

2011-01-17T10:38:00.002+08:00

on a day like this i just wanto be left alone to sleep things away. the last thing i wanto do is to have dinner with somebody i don't wanto see or have a conversation with

~

2011-01-15T23:33:00.004+08:00

cho ren presented me with this huge bag of stuff she got for me from uk today. the last time we met she brought me stuff from thailand. i seldom give her anything but she always has stuff for me when she comes back from xxx country. so sweet right <':

hai i am the most horrible friend ever. i think i used to put in more effort in remembering people's birthdays and the things they like but now i'm just like mehhhhhh~

shern was just telling me the other day that she told her friend 'qinyi every year will make cards for me one' but i think i disappointed her last Christmas when i turned up with NOTHING when i met her for brunch some time after Christmas. i don't know where that part of myself wento ):

QINYI PLEASE WAKE UP YOUR IDEAAAAAAAAAAA

These are things that I don't understand

2011-01-11T09:25:00.005+08:00

How tides control the sea
And what becomes of me
How little things can slip out of your hand

How often people change
No two remain the same
Why things don't always turn out as you planned

meaningless conversations

2011-01-05T22:30:00.003+08:00

"tell you ah, cannot eat XYZ ah"

"no la i only eat ABC"

"you better not eat XYZ"

"but.. i only eat ABC"

"yah! cannot eat XYZ!"

2011-01-01T10:39:00.004+08:00

there's a cute pimple on my left wrist. somebody was thanking God for a tumor that went missing at watch night service last night so i showed my pimple to jiajun and said "eh i also have tumor ):" and you know what he said!!!!!!!!!!

"NO. yours is breast cancer"

WOW LAO THANKS AHHHH

on a side note, year 2010 has been an awesome year ^^ gonna do up a 2010 post in the next few days if i can. heading out to hang with my kids and then for ygsfc pardy tonight ! can't wait !!

2010-12-26T01:11:00.002+08:00

service last night was a blast! so proud of my glove kids - i think they did a great job!! also, i'm really thankful that after so many years i am still celebrating Christmas in a church. nobody knows how difficult it is for people my age these days, sigh

had a great Christmas pardy in the morning/afternoon at my fbl's place with the 1724 people, just eating, hanging and playing wii/monopoly deal. i know i can always depend on this bunch for food and Christmas company <:

i'm off the whole of next week, special thanks to my awesome bosses. they are reallly too kind <': i've made some plans but i still have space for more meet ups and gatherings. please contact me asap so that i can make arrangements and prepare a present for you if need be

another Christmas dinner tomorrow night and more Christmas shopping on monday. can't wait can't wait!!!!!!

so worn out but i've games to prepare for tomorrow. more updates when i'm free. tata^^

we're adrift on a sailboat

2010-12-23T22:59:00.003+08:00

pretty excited about Christmas though i don't have many concrete plans as of now. for everything else, i think i've lost my drive

2010-12-21T00:27:00.002+08:00

chairpersons should be chosen based on abilities and not gender. dude the least you can do is to be decisive

faith is a backless design but i still choose it

2010-12-18T22:40:00.005+08:00

my table is a mess. too much loot from the week. sigh this year has turned me into a lousy shopping partner. i no longer have the ability to talk while shopping. if you talk to me when i'm thinking about buying something, chances are i will give you a shitty reply. and it's really not like i wanto, but there is a need to think about the things you buy while shopping ok?!

i was supposed to get a haircut today but i went shopping instead. i don't think i have ever felt so depressed shopping for something for a friend before. i know i'm probably thinking too much but i cannot help it. if only we spend each and every day with the ones we love as if it's their last day on earth

2010-12-14T20:37:00.002+08:00

stupid flu better be gone by tomorrow don't disturb my Christmas shopping ):<

who are we fooling?

2010-12-07T00:16:00.003+08:00

coerced ting ting into lending me his itouch for two months \m/ aiya ok i bought him a caramel frappe and lent him my eastpak in return, so i guess that's pretty ok. bastard whole weekend kenna 'eh i lending you itouch hor' then must be nice and help throw rubbish etc

anyway, music makes a mother huge difference i tell you! i've been traveling without an iPod for almost a month and it was so torturous. i think it's a huge part of the reason why i was so depressed for the past few weeks. today i just kept smiling to myself alllllll the way to work while listening to my new playlists. wahahahahahaha so happy :D

yesterday during sermon daryl kept nodding and going mmm. yesss. yesss. mmmmmm. .......... hor qinyi? then he never say anything just fly to europe leave me here for 2.5weeks !!!!!!!!!!!!!! he is going to be very disappointed with me when he gets back S:

dad is coming back next friday, ~teacher huang~ on thursday and ahwang next next week or smth.....? booooo please stay safe and come back soon everyone! good night!

all we can do is keep breathing

2010-12-02T23:58:00.003+08:00

having the mother of all mood swings this week. i thought it would have ended last week but NO, IT HAD TO STAY FOR SO LONG

somedays i sit on the bus, look of the window and smile to myself, somedays i put on my headphones, listen to songs and let myself cry like a shitball. also, i cannot handle frustration. apart from kicking things, i abuse my visa like a yoko. angry is just don't care price don't care exchange rate don't care shipping just buy. the thing i ordered from hk last week is not here yet but i'm buying something else already. boooo

so anyway, at the beginning of the week i told myself again, ok this week 2 appointments max. end up whole week just go out meet people come back 1130 /: i've been going to nex EVERY DAY for the past 5 days but i still can get lost. i have a very very poor sense of direction. or zero sense of direction ):

i was at nex with the kids for dinner last night and we made this super random decision to catch a movie in the morning the next day just cos we wanted to be the first to sit on the new seats. so i took half day off today and we caught hello stranger. idk how to explain the strange differences in watching a movie in december and watching one in any other month. it is just a very strange feeling. mmm

had great fellowship over starbucks coffee at liat after our tomyum soup dinner tonight. there is something about old friends that i like very much. like how i can force somebody to lend me his itouch, how we can show zero respect for one another and not worry about pissing the other party off, correcting people's english like we're grammer nazis when we ownself say shit like troublesooting and 'actually escalator and lift is same thing what', ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

ok i am very tired that is all for now. have a great weekend ahead everyone! <:

2010-12-01T23:00:00.002+08:00

today, one of my kids told me that he thinks i will make a great sister. i am so touched <':

and my burden to bear is a love i can't carry anymore

2010-12-01T09:52:00.006+08:00

There were things I wanted to tell him. But I knew they would hurt him. So I buried them, and let them hurt me.
~Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

the day is near

2010-11-28T21:47:00.003+08:00

And do this, understanding the present time: The hour has already come for you to wake up from your slumber, because our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed. The night is nearly over; the day is almost here. So let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armor of light.
~Romans 13:11-12

thanks daryl

dayong sampan~~

2010-11-20T23:12:00.004+08:00

so much to think about but my brain is so dead. i need a stay home and rest day but tomorrow is going to be another long day. bahhhhhhhhhhhhh

2010-11-20T01:22:00.001+08:00

my compartmentalized life remains compartmentalized

"it's okay to cry"

2010-11-18T22:47:00.003+08:00

my head is going to explode from all the worrying

life can trip you up on a perfect day

2010-11-17T22:35:00.004+08:00

we wento the underwater world today and i spent some time standing in front of the aquarium watching jellyfish move

thinking about it now makes me wanto cry. i must be the most horrible and most selfish person on earth

the Lord gives and the Lord takes away, may the the name of the Lord be praised

2010-11-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

before i started work this week, i told myself that i should stop eating out/meeting friends every day and spend at least 2-3 weekday nights at home every week from now. sigh.. i really don't know what happened but my weekday nights for this week are already fully packed. not blaming anybody who has asked me out this week but i need to do something about my time management if i'm serious about picking up a new hobby. i was thinking, i need to start eliminating people from my life. like, allow myself to drift away from anybody who is less than awesome. then i thought for damnnnnnn long and realized that there are too few of such people in my life as of now. project elimination fail but i'm happy for myself <:

met an old friend for dinner today and i really enjoyed myself. i think it's amazing how people who haven't met for years can sit at a table and have a highly unawkward conversation

i think it's a me thing. i love learning things about people and listening to people talk. makes me really happy for some reason <: <: intellectual people are very much preferred though. thinking about last week just makes me wanto throw up

on a completely unrelated note, if i do get married and have kids, i wanto name my son matt. that's is all. good night!

mou yu dan

2010-11-14T21:43:00.005+08:00

this week's earworm!

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i think it's true that God can speak to you even through the lousiest speaker/sermon. i really really wanna meet nfjj..............

the sky is so shallow

2010-11-09T18:23:00.001+08:00

spent my day cleaning up my desk, chucking old stuff out and vacuuming the floor with my november playlist playing in the background

i'm thinking i can lead a simple life and be very happy in the future. we don't say it but money is a huge issue

could do with someone hugging me to sleep tonight

2010-11-09T10:07:00.001+08:00

You're not the perfect hand but I don't hit on nineteen
And I don't need another kind of green to know I'm on the right side with you

<:

too many corners in my mind

2010-11-07T00:54:00.002+08:00

i find it incredibly heartwarming when people remember the kind of food i like

donuts/prawns/niao dans/chocolate ice cream

i had a great week. thanks guys <:

2010-11-02T10:53:00.002+08:00

i've been reading a really good book. and i'm very glad i gave this book a chance because i don't give many books any chance, heh

there are too many things to look forward to this week. meeting my bosses for lunch in a bit, ikea dinner tonight, steamboat with the worship ministry/choir people on thursday night and the (deng deng deng deng) public holiday on friday !!!!!!!! it's gonna be a great week ahead ! :D

we're pilgrims on the journey of the narrow road

2010-10-28T23:16:00.004+08:00

last week was probably one of the best weeks of the year. but this week is just ~~

we're all super worn out, even getting out of bed is a chore. my legs were aching from my run the whole of tuesday and i was in a really horrible mood. i couldn't find my drawing pen when i was heading out and i just started screaming and kicking things in the house cos i was so frustrated. i really hate that feeling

but what i hated most this week was following the van. i hate when they make you follow the van and when they play amazing grace. i swear it's the most horrible feeling in the world

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found some time to open the fridge to eat the fruits we got from the fruit ~~manufacturer~~ exporter last saturday. we got this amazing melon (which really tastes more like honeydew than melon) for 5bucks and it revived my love for honeydew. also had mango and strawberries before i wento the library today to borrow a book. i don't know why i'm reading a book but i'm reading a book. dropped by 黄府 for porridge and fruit juice after that. ~teacher huang~ blended lemon/kiwi and pomegranate/pear/banana juice for me. i could shit a mountain right now

2010-10-27T00:16:00.004+08:00

i'm so tired

death and all his friends

2010-10-24T17:47:00.002+08:00

"Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised."
~Job 1:21

i think i've found what i've been searching for for the past month. just didn't think i had to learn it the hard way

there's someone somewhere

2010-10-14T01:23:00.004+08:00

i love good blogs and the good people behind them. don't ask me how to tell if they are good people, you just know. maybe it's the songs they listen to, or the friends they blog about, or the passion they have for certain things. i don't know. i'm always super tempted to send the blogger an email to tell her that i think she's awesome and that she will make a great friend. and then i imagine her replying my email and telling me that she would love to meet me and we hang and we become close friends and we have ten thousand things to talk about and we decide that we should move out of our parents' place to go live in a secluded apartment with cement floor and low ceilings for the rest of our lives. YES I THINK ABOUT MY CEMENT FLOOR + LOW CEILING HOUSE ALMOST EVERY DAY. sad to say, i am just not that kind of person. i won't even leave an anonymous comment or ask a formspring question. it's super retarded considering i have a formspring account myself. bahhhhhhh

on an unrelated note, i need new shoes. it was between sperry and something else the other day but i can't recall the other brand right now. doesn't reallly matter cos this will probably happen only next next month or something. next month i shall get new boots :D

2010-10-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling a lot better after ranting to jobooms and watching the noose. but it's been almost 3 years and we've had lots of good and bad memories together. haiiiiiii why did you leave just like that, my dear chee cheong fan.....???

God is trying to tell me something. i know for sure that He wants to tell me something. first my phone, then my wallet, then my iPod. i need to figure this out asap, before my camera or something else dies. sighhhh.. four more months till i get to change my phone. so tragic.............

2010-10-10T01:16:00.001+08:00

软弱的电话又打给你。。。。。。

2010-10-07T14:09:00.001+08:00

"The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and covered up; then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant in search of fine pearls, who, on finding one pearl of great value, went and sold all that he had and bought it." - Matthew 13:44-46

2010-10-03T19:28:00.002+08:00

i hate the feeling of having trusted the wrong person

2010-10-03T01:20:00.001+08:00

i think i know why i'm feeling so burnt out

2010-09-28T22:31:00.002+08:00

i'm getting so depressed over very stupid things. last week it was my handphone and this week it's my wallet. i think God is trying to tell me something. to take my mind off these material things maybe. i am obviously not very good at this

BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

october is coming in less than 3 days and i can't wait!!!!!!! we're going to USS and i'm going to do my nike 10k with lion. ahhhh cannot breathe so exciting